Category: The Unfinished Journey

  • Turns Out I Wasn’t Lost

    The Unfinished Journey/ Wally Bornmann/ July 22, 2026

    I first got to thinking about superpowers when I was a kid watching George Reeves portray Superman.

    I so wanted to have X-ray vision for reasons that should be obvious when we’re talking about boys entering that time when their voices change.

    My second “I wish I had” was to be able to fly, fly far and free, and see things like how Walt had done building Disneyland — I had no illusions of ever getting there any other way.

    (Spoiler Alert — I still haven’t been there and doubt I ever will.)

    Not sure why I’m thinking about all of that just now other than because I’ve been thinking about how I’ve been a wanderer — not physically but in my thoughts for sure.

    There’s a guy who knows me just a bit who went to calling me Wandering Wally after we’d spent some time together. I rather like it.

    The thing is, I have to say I admire the heck out of folks who can focus on something with laser-like intensity. I can’t think of a time when I ever was that focused. Hell, these days if I suddenly found myself focused like that I’m pretty sure my kids would start worrying about me. Truth is I’d start worrying about me, too.

    No, laser-like focus ain’t me.

    Oh, I can get hooked on this, that, or something else every now and again but it never lasts. Sooner rather than later you can take it to the bank that I’m going to wander off to something else that catches my eye. The results of my fascination, much like my laundry, will be lying in a pile in some corner or on my computer.

    I can’t begin to list all the things that have caught my eye over the years from religion to quantum physics to buying guitars and beyond.

    (Sidenote here — I’m not convinced that religion and quantum physics aren’t two sides of the same coin.)

    So, here I sit, Wandering Wally at your service.

    ****

    There was a time I thought about buying an old school bus, getting a dog, tuning up my guitar, and wandering across the country.

    I never did.

    Instead, I did what I thought I was supposed to do.

    Today I look back and say that was one of those “Which fork do I take?” moments that show up in one’s life. Of course, not being much of a deep thinker I didn’t stop to realize I had options having just left the Navy and returning to civilian life.

    Press me on it today and I can’t tell you whether I made the right decision for myself or not.

    Fearing this will sound over-the-top egotistical I think I did the right thing for others through the years, but I’ll always wonder if I did for myself. (Someday I could see myself thinking and writing on that very subject.)

    The thing is, I took the trail I took. Even when I told myself I was on track for this or that, I never stayed there very long. Shame on me because I knew it. Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew I was wandering and wondering about another something.

    It’s never been that nothing ever grabbed hold of me and tried to hold on. More than once something has wrapped its arms around me and I told myself that was my something.

    You want proof?

    I had a couple of things that I’d call true loves in my life. One of them was photography.

    The part of the world I grew up in wasn’t what anyone would consider the mecca of artistic achievement, at least not from what I was exposed to. Sure, there was an art teacher that brought pictures of the old masters to my grade school classroom, but they never connected with me.

    It wasn’t until I started looking at pictures in Life, National Geographic, and other photo-heavy magazines that something about photography began to catch my attention. Years later photography would become a true passion of mine.

    Music found me early in my life. In high school I found comfort in singing and playing my tenor saxophone.

    For those few years, pretty girls, playing basketball, playing that sax, and singing were who I was and what I was about.

    I’ll always believe that music could have been my life.

    The thing is, no one ever talked about what I could do with my music after I walked out those high school doors. Oh, sure, I knew there were people that sang or played instruments and made a living at it, but I didn’t have the first idea how to get out those high school doors to some stage somewhere. So, singing would become private for years and that tenor saxophone would never be played again.

    When I think about it, when I walked out of the doors of that high school for the last time, that’s when the wandering got kicked into high gear. I didn’t have a clue as to where I was going and I saw no path to walk.

    Looking back, I think not knowing put me on the trail I’ve spent my life walking.

    ****

    WARNING – Never walk into a military recruitment office unsure of where you want your journey to take you.

    ****

    A kid from a very small town in Wisconsin can be amazed by most anything.

    Anything that floated on the water, was over sixteen feet long, wasn’t made out of wood or fiberglass, and had a 5-horse Johnson outboard motor attached to it was a most impressive something.

    Welcome to Wandering Wally and the Navy.

    I ended up in the Navy because I had no idea what other options I had.

    I’d gone to college because I didn’t have a clue, and no, the University of Wisconsin at La Crosse doesn’t remember me — I bailed before the end of my first semester.

    One thing led to another, and yes I will write about all of that, but for now here I am in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean following Hurricane Camille into the North Atlantic and thinking I ain’t never seen nothin’ like this. Forty-plus-foot waves have that effect on a flatlander.

    “Ain’t no one gonna believe this,” I tell myself.

    I realize I want to show someone, my folks were pretty much my go-to audience, what I was experiencing so I figured I’d buy a camera so I could take some pictures and send them home.

    My first camera was a Kodak Instamatic camera bought at the ship’s store.

    There are all sorts of firsts in a person’s life that people do, and sometimes don’t, talk about. One of the firsts I’ll talk about is the first photographs I got back from that Kodak Instamatic camera.

    I swear I still remember standing outside the ship’s post office, tearing open the envelope with the pictures I’d taken, and being completely immersed in what I was seeing. To this day the image of two destroyers in the distance remains a photo I clearly see in my mind’s eye.

    Anyone today, I’d include myself, would have looked at that photo and at best asked, “What’s the big deal?” For me, in that moment, I might as well have just put the finishing touches on the Sistine Chapel’s ceiling.

    The physical evidence of that first photograph is long gone but what it created inside of me lingers to this day.

    Because of that photo I’d go on to find myself taking photographs of the newest Soviet Union missile destroyer in its fleet. There I was on my captain’s barge in the middle of the Mediterranean with the crew of that ship holding rifles and machine guns at the ready.

    Thing is, I only had my Pentax Spotmatic 35mm camera with a 400mm lens to point back at them.

    I’d be thought of as the ship’s photographer though I’m not sure it ever showed up in my service records.

    That’s when I knew that all I ever wanted in my life was to be a professional photographer.

    Thing was, thing is, I never had a clue as to how someone goes about doing that.

    The day would come when I was in college studying to become a photojournalist when, much like the music, there came a day when circumstances beyond my control took me away from what I was focusing on.

    I told myself I was doing the right thing leaving my dream behind and trying to become a husband and father-to-be that would provide for my family.

    In the end, the path I chose damn near killed me and yes that’s another story for another day.

    I had a direction, a focus, and then because things happen the path one thinks they’re walking becomes the one they never will walk.

    And so the wandering would begin again and never truly end.

    ****

    I’ve spent my life trying to figure out my life — the who and why of me.

    It’s not talked about much, but I suspect I’m not alone in feeling the things I feel, thinking the things I think, and wondering, “What if?”

    There’s a mixture of gratefulness for the life I’ve gotten to experience up to this point and admittedly a regret for a life I imagine I might have chosen instead. I doubt I’m unique though I can only speak for myself.

    Had I walked out of those high school doors believing I knew where I was headed, what path I would walk, I wonder if I would have ever bought a Kodak Instamatic camera and found the love for photography that I hold to this day.

    Had I walked out of Brooklyn Naval Shipyard with discharge papers in hand, bought an old school bus, got a dog, tuned up my guitar and started driving what path might have presented itself?

    Admittedly there were times when regret snuck in and the longing for an old school bus, a dog, and a tuned guitar were a part of it. The imagined picture I come up with would suit Wandering Wally well.

    The thing is that Wandering Wally found himself wandering only in his thoughts. Anyone who wants to find him can.

    These days I hide in plain sight if anyone is interested in finding me.

    These days I do my best to live honestly with the mystery.

    Until next time, keep your Unfinished Journey unforgettable.

    Happy Trails

  • Clarity Is Never All That Clear

    The Unfinished Journey/ Wally Bornmann/ July 11, 2026

    I find myself wondering about how I see things.

    How do I see the world around me, the people in it, and most often how do I see myself fitting into all of it?

    I admit that for a variety of reasons for most of my life I’ve never seen myself fitting in all well. These days I know I don’t.

    It may be that age does that to a person, I’ve never been this old before so I don’t have much insight into such things.

    What’s got me more than a little bothered is that I’m sure I don’t want to spend much time these days worrying about whether or not I fit in.

    That may be a part of getting older also for all I know.

    I still recall how in my early teenage years I was pretty damn sure I know how things worked and how I could fix everything if I got a chance.

    By the time I was heading into my twenties I had to accept there was something to that saying about when you’re young the old fart doesn’t know much but when you get a bit older yourself you’re surprised how much the old guy has learned in such a short time.

    As best I recall back in those teen days of mine it was generally assumed that anyone over thirty was well beyond helping when it came to much of anything.

    My generation was many things and full of itself was certainly one of them.

    These days I’m pleased to say I’m still doing my best to learn enough so I can say I’m as smart as the smartass I once was.

    The smartass kid I was thought I had everything figured out and could see clearly from here to infinity and beyond. The old fart I’ve become knows I have nothing truly figured out and need glasses to see beyond my nose.

    * * *

    I remember once hearing that some problems that show up in folks come from things that happened to them, usually traumatic things.

    I don’t have a clue whether that’s the case or not but I’ve never dismissed the possibility.

    When I was in third grade a friend of mine died. I knew she was sick, but I was certain the operation she was going to get was going to make her better.

    I’m pretty sure I prayed to God on that one. After that I don’t remember praying all that much.

    It was after that when my vision started getting fuzzy.

    I’ve worn glasses ever since and sometimes wonder if that was my body’s response. I was saying I don’t want to see this sort of thing ever again and so my eyes decided they’d help me out. It wasn’t anything drastic mind you, but I was only in third grade so maybe my body said a little is enough.

    Sounds weird to most folks, I get it, can’t say I buy it myself. And yet, I wonder about such things every now and then.

    It’s like how I look out beyond my front door — seems something happened that makes everyone see things just a bit fuzzy.

    I can see it now — a national “Day with Your Optometrist” with pay.

    The thing is I’m not that smartass teenager anymore and I know an eye prescription for everyone would help — but folks will still see what they see. They might think they’re seeing more clearly which would make the whole situation even worse.

    The thing is I’ve been around just about long enough to accept that what I think I’m seeing clearly, what I think others should be seeing clearly, is never how it really is. There’s always more to every story and there’s always more to see if I just take the time to look closer.

    * * *

    I’ve been wearing glasses goin’ on seventy years. Not about to start saying I’ve ever seen things clearly over all those years. Not about to claim I’m seeing things clearly today.

    One thing I will say is I sure don’t care much for what I’m seeing.

    I long ago said I see storm clouds comin’ and these days I don’t need anything more than my eyes to see they’re getting closer.

    Folks are allowing things in this country to get more messed up because everyone wants to insist there’s a simple solution to every problem we’ve got.

    Seems to me that that thinking keeps making things more complicated by the day.

    Hell, things are so damn simple to fix I’m sure there’s someone to talk to about cleaning up a green reflection pool.

    The thing is as I see them, is it’s been this thing where today what folks say they want swings one way and then tomorrow they want things some other way.

    From what I’ve seen and what I think I’m seeing things have swung more than a little one way and I’m not sure they’re done swinging. But sooner or later things are going to start swinging back the other way and there’s going to come a time when no one wants to let things swing anymore.

    So, I see storm clouds and I’m saying I don’t need my prescription checked.

    There’s a thing or two that sadden me about what I think I’m seeing.

    Most of all I’m sorry that my kids and grandkids are going to have to straighten out the mess that’s been made. None of it was their making but they’re sure enough going to have to suffer through whatever’s coming.

    Then there’s all the good folks out there that have tried the best they could. This country’s filled with amazing folks who given the chance will see to it that things get better. There are those that will do anything they can to hold those good folks down.

    I find myself asking if good can do the things that may be needed to rise above the bad.

    Honestly, I don’t have the answer, but I want to think they can.

    Then, for reasons I can’t clearly explain, I think about the fact that I’ve lived through the two hundredth and the two hundred and fiftieth anniversary of this nation — will there be a three hundredth?

    * * *

    I remember praying when I was young. Marla died and I got glasses. I haven’t been much of a prayer since then.

    The thing about all of this is that with or without my glasses I see storm clouds.

    God, I pray I’m wrong.

    Until next time keep your Unfinished Journey unforgettable.

    Happy trails.